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2.5I have no idea how to rate this book. Because.. Well, I liked it but I didn't, too. I think if it wasn't for the fact that I could relate to Mac (=Judas), I wouldn't have given this book 2.5 stars. On the other handside it was a very light and enjoyable read, but it had some flaws that make it hard for me to give it a good rating.For starters, it was slow. I don't mean that it took me long to read it, cause it didn't. I also like the idea of four friends starting a business and I think the hero of the story was a nice .. change, if you may call it that. As my Goodreads shelves show, I'm more the fantasy reader and most fantasy heroes are all "Ar. I'm alpha. Let's have sex!" which after a time get's boring. (And from the beginning on was very annoying)But this was simply a very slow story. Unlike the In Death series (the only books I've read written by Nora Roberts/JD Robb so far) the plot here is character-driven. Living from Judas' struggle to believe that happiness might last and that it's worth the risk. But there is barely a plot. Okay, there is one and if you're looking for it, if you have the time and motivation to see the plot inside of the little things, this might be your novel, but I'm a junk-reader. It's my 'LOST' and 'HOUSE, MD'. I don't want to be all Holmes about my contemporary romance novels.I expected something else, because the German blurb is bullshit. There it says that the ex-girlfriend is a big part of the story, when in fact she is - on the opposite - just a little tool, Roberts used to affect the heroine, create a conflict and a reaction.The story lacked .. things. Some I can name, such as a little more 'action' and a more satisfactory face-off. (Not between Judas and her mom, but between the 'reader' and the mother. I understand that this woman won't change. But as a reader I wished for something to happen, something that would open her eyes. Nothing that'd lead to the happily ever after, no questions asked. But something that'd show how people CAN change) Others I can't quite grab - The little things that could have made this book much better.To be fair I need to add that I'm a bitter shit:When Judas finally was all "Oh, love! Yay! Worth it!" my insides screamed: "BETRAYER!" and I simply thought: If she hadn't been that much like me in the beginning, this end wouldn't have bothered me in the least. But she was and her conclusions weren't mine and I sat there, thinking that love is a delusional state and a biological imperative to ensure our existence, which you can either accept and live with or not. Now, she obviously decided to try.. Judas